Category: Scripture Blogs

Surviving to Thriving

It’s been ages since I posted. When I started this site, I had high hopes of posting my Proverbs 31 journey. But what does a single woman, completely invisible to men, know about being a noble wife? Absolutely nothing. Heck, I don’t even know how to thrive at being a single woman. The media keeps giving me mixed signals of who I should be. While the church thinks I should be a wife. So I spent the past year of my life severely depressed – stuck in this identity prison, stripped of any joy that I ever had, trying to just make it through each day… Alone.

As a Christian, I’m not allowed to complain, but I’m also not allowed to keep it bottled up. I’m supposed to focus on all I’m grateful for, and all the bad stuff will eventually disappear. Well after 152 days of doing that, guess what? I’m still anxious. I still battle with depression, but those days are fewer and farther between. It’s hard to find something to be grateful for on those bad days, but I do it anyway. It makes me that much more grateful for that one thing.

When I reflect on where I was this time last year, and where I am now, I think about Paul’s statement to the Corinthians that we only know part of the story, but one day we will know the whole thing, just as we are all currently fully known by the Storyteller. Oh how I wish I knew the big picture, but do I really? I mean, I don’t like spoilers in any story…

Proverbs 31:25 says that “Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she smiles at the future.” So let’s armor up, and look forward to what’s ahead, instead of living in the dark spots of our past.

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Psalm 100 – Thankful

Know that the LORD Himself is God; It is He who has made us, and not we ourselves; We are His people and the sheep of His pasture. (Psalms 100:3 NASB)
I’m thankful that the one who created us knows how to take care of us. He knows when it’s time to slow down and rest. He is not bound by our agendas. If he thinks we need a time out, it’s going to happen. I’m also thankful that he is not bound by our stigmas. If we swallow our pride to admit we need help, he’ll provide the grace for our humility.

In The Beginning…

“In the beginning was the Word, 
and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. All things were created through Him, and apart from Him not one thing was created that has been created” (Jn 1:1-3).
“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth” (Gen 1:1). 

In the beginning, God.

God was the Word. God was the Creator. His word, truth; His creation, good.

As I begin a new year, my prayer is that I will trust His Word and His creative ways more than in 2014. After all, since He was before all things, he must know more than me.

Let the King be Enthralled By Your Beauty

Listen, daughter, and pay careful attention: Forget your people and your father’s house. Let the king be enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord. (‭Psalm‬ ‭45‬:‭10-11‬ NIV)

For much longer than I care to admit, I have struggled with my appearance. Proverbs 31:30 can only encourage an insecure girl for so long. We exhaust ourselves with all the self talk that we’re beautiful on the inside, and character is what really matters. But then you get another wedding invitation from another pretty friend (inside and out), and you’re left alone wondering, “is beauty really vain?” After all, if I’m such a wonderful person, why don’t I have it – whatever “it” is?
Psalms 43:11 reminds us that The King of kings and Lord of lords is ENTHRALLED by our beauty! We don’t have to try to fit into some cookie cutter mold that the world thinks we should resemble in order to put a ring on it. We just need to be who He created us to be, and honor him with the bodies and gifts He gave us.
I wish I could say that I am cured of this toxic thinking, but I have to remind myself of this passage everyday. If I want to overcome this way of thinking, I need to be intentional about retraining my brain to think and to see me the way that the King sees me. I need to forget the lies I heard in the past. The King is enthralled by my beauty. And his opinion is the only one that matters!

Psalm 12 & 13 – The Refiner

The words of the LORD are pure words; as silver tried in a furnace on the earth, refined seven times. (Psalm 12:6 NASB)

It is so hard to find honest people. It seems like everyone puts a spin on their stories to boast in themselves; I am just as guilty. Why can’t we be people of our word? God detests a lying tongue, yet we still lie.

May the church rise up, and stand for integrity. May we be people of our word. In so doing, may we attract others to the refiner!

But not only does the refiner have the ability to refine our lips, but he can burn away the chaff of our hearts to allow renewal to take place. Many times in my life’s have identified with the psalmist when he said, “How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?” I wore myself out praying for breakthroughs, and never seeing them. I prevailed in prayer, just to feel like a cloud has sucked up all the sound coming out of my mouth. Has he forgotten me? Is he hiding from my constant begging?

But God wants to bless me more than I could ask or imagine! He uses those times of discouragement to draw me near to him. He has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. It’s my job to ask for the desires of my heart (or something better), then trust him to do it!

It’s also important that I don’t continually go to God with a wish list. He is not my genie. He is Almighty God, and I’m to serve him, not the other way around.

How the enemy wants to place doubts in my heart – throwing accusations and insecurity as I’m trying to reach the finish line. When the battle of the mind isn’t working, he throws temptation – old tricks that worked. He doesn’t relent. That’s why I too will not relent. I will put on the full armor of God, and stand firm against the attacks if the enemy. The war is already won – the battle belongs to The Lord. I will sleep in peace knowing that my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ has got me. My heart will rejoice in his salvation. “I will sing to the LORD, because He has dealt bountifully with me.” (Psalm 13:6 NASB)

Psalm 11- God of Righteousness

For the Lord is righteous, He loves righteousness; The upright will behold His face. (Psalm 11:7 NASB)

David must have been so scared, hiding from the king during a new moon (1 Samuel 20). Would he even be able to see Saul’s men if they advanced? Of course, God used that dark sky to protect David from being spotted by them. I wonder if David found encouragement knowing that the new moon could work in HIS favor just as easily as it could Saul’s. how quickly though to we see the hinderance to our situation, and not see that it is equally hindering our enemy. Just like the sun shines and the rain falls on everyone equally, the darkness of night can keep us from being seen by our attackers.

God anointed David as king, and now he’s running from the king? How’s THAT for a plan?! Oh the doubts that must have been plaguing David’s mind! Maybe I’m just having these thoughts on David’s behalf, because they would’ve been mine. God makes me a promise, and situations in life that counter that make me doubt Him. In fact, my trust issues often deceive me to believe that my helper will betray me. But God, YOU are my refuge! Even when I run scared to the mountain where you directed me. It may be far from my Jerusalem, but it’s where I need to go to ensure that I make it to Jerusalem in one piece! You test and love the righteous. May I pass your test with flying colors, so that one day I can behold your face and hear, “well done, good and faithful servant!”

Psalm 10 – Supreme Vigilante

He sits in the lurking places of the villages; In the hiding places he kills the innocent; His eyes stealthily watch for the unfortunate. He lurks in a hiding place as a lion in his lair; He lurks to catch the afflicted; He catches the afflicted when he draws him into his net. He crouches, he bows down, And the unfortunate fall by his mighty ones. (‭Psalms‬ ‭10‬:‭8-10‬ NASB)

I have read through the Psalms many times. I typically have trouble identifying with David when he pours out his heart on the enemy pursuing him. I have never been a military leader – and never will. How does it feel to know that some is lurking around trying to overtake you? I haven’t the foggiest clue. Or do I?

I Peter 5:8 states, “Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” He crouches around waiting to overtake us – whether it be current bondage, guilt from the past, or evil in the world.

When I witness the hate in the world, I want to play the role of vigilante. But your word says, “Never take your own revenge, beloved, but leave room for the wrath of God, for it is written, “VENGEANCE IS MINE, I WILL REPAY,” says the Lord (Romans 12:19 NASB). You will see to it that justice is served for those who have oppressed your children. You will take care of those responsible for the rampant spread of human trafficking.

God, may the church rise as your ambassadors to rescue those who cannot help themselves. Instead of spewing hate at the evil doers, may we overcome evil with good (1 Thess 5:15).

The wicked will soon find out that there is a God, for every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. May they realize this while there is still time for their redemption. May they receive your grace, forgiveness, and salvation. God you do not wish for any to perish but for ALL to come to repentance.